So, life sucks. More specifically, my love life, or the lack thereof. I was supposed to hang out with the guy I like yesterday, but he never called. I let it go because I thought he was celebrating his brother's birthday, which was Saturday. Then I come into school today to find out that he was hanging out with someone else whom he knows I don't like. Well, it's not that I don't like her, she just seems to get with every guy I've liked or even just hang out with, which really pisses me off. We've had a major falling out before, but that's kind of besides the point I guess. Anyway, I asked him about it in sixth hour, and he said "He wasn't supposed to hang out with anybody yesterday." Except me. I guess I don't count anymore. I was only the one that got him through his hardest times, and convinced him not to kill himself on more than one occassion. I'm also the one who he called when he needed to talk about his family issues. I used to be the one he wanted to spend his time with. Apparently that has changed.

So, that leaves me wondering, why am I never good enough? Is it because I'm not pretty enough, because I'm not a size five with blonde hair and blue eyes? Am I not smart enough? Not talented enough? Or maybe it's because I don't put out. I'm never the one that guys look at and think "she's amazing." Why? Does anyone have a reason? I know I don't.

I really know how to pick them, don't I? Every time I fall for someone I end up getting hurt. How many more times does my heart have to break before it finally works out? Assuming that it ever will.